You seem to always be the month of reds and pinks. Well, at least in my part of the world. When you arrive the world is filled with hearts and Cupid's arrows. Then, after your 14th day, the world is filled with discounted chocolate and teddy-bears that say, "I love you."
Some years I've despised you for bringing Valentine's Day along. Some years I haven't really cared. Some years I've been giddy about your arrival. This year I am thankful. I am single and the happiest I've ever been to be so. Sure, when I make a connection with someone I explore it, but I wake up smiling even without an "in a relationship" status. Someday I hope that you will arrive and I will have a wonderful life partner by my side. Yet, in the mean time, I don't feel sad. I'm thankful.
There is so much love in my life that I can't help but smile. I smile when you arrive with the swirling hearts and romantic cards. I smile. I smile for the couple sitting in the coffee shop. Their hands are wrinkled, but they still press them together and gaze into each other's eyes. Only they know all the good and bad they've walked through. I smile for my parents who show love on more than a single holiday a year. They love through the highs, the lows, and the seemingly ordinary. I smile for the love of my friends with their spouses and the love they already have so strongly for the little lives that are growing inside of their wombs. I smile for the love between my brothers, sister and I. And, I smile for the way my friends still love me even when we see each other rarely. I smile for the love of my parents and the ways they've taught me to love others. I smile for the love of God. I smile for the hope I have. I'm not perfect, life is filled with messiness and so many hard things that I do not understand, but life is also filled with love. I don't think I will ever fully understand love, but love is real.
Yes, as you arrive, I smile for the abundance of love in my life.
So, February, you've arrived. I sit here writing this letter with a pile of handmade notes by my side. They are just waiting to take flight and hopefully bring a smile to some of the ones I love. Because, when you arrive, I think of so much more than just romantic love.
Thank you, February. You've taught me a lot of lessons over the years. Today I sit and give thanks. I give thanks for love.