Monday, October 28, 2013
Giving of two...
Yesterday was a mixture of a day. Yesterday I gave two things to two different people.
One gift was a true joy to give! It was a gift for my dear friend Sara Beth. The gift was a song that I had been patiently waiting to give her for a long time. To watch her as she heard it for the first time and to be able to place a DVD copy in her hands was one of the greatest blessings. I am so thankful that I was able to give it to her.
Yet, the other giving was hard. It came about from God working in my heart. It wasn't easy to give even though it was good and what I was supposed to do. This was a gift of letting go. It was a gift of letting go of hurt feelings and a gift of forgiving. But, it was also a giving up of dreams and good memories into God's faithful hands.
To be honest, thoughts of the difficult giving of yesterday have been woven into my thoughts throughout today. It hasn't been easy. I'm trying to let go and to trust. I've let go of a lot of pain and so much un-forgiveness, but now I must let go of things I loved, things I cherished, dreams I dreamed, and good memories.
Letting go is hard. Especially when sometimes you still miss the good things, the good times, and the good moments with someone.
All in all, it is strange to think how much contrast a single day can hold. Filled with joy, laughter, tears, and aching all in one 24 hours span of time. Yet, in the midst of all of it God is faithful.
I pray that I will continue to learn to trust in this season of letting go.