Saturday, March 31, 2012

Sentimentality...

Happy weekend to you!

On this spring afternoon I thought that I would share a little bit of sentimentality.
Yesterday I received the official prom invitation in the mail. It was very gold themed and maybe just a little over the top in the gold department. But, if any event is allowed to be a little over the top maybe it is prom. The scroll part of the invitation was very nice though and I know that whoever put all of those together went to a lot of work. All in all, receiving the official invitation made me all the more excited.

And, I have a confession. Last night, after I promptly showed the invitation to my parents I took the little bit of gold cord that was wrapped around the scroll and turned it into a bracelet.

Yes, I am that sentimental.


With prom coming up in mere weeks it feels a bit fun to be able to wear a little piece of the excitement right on my wrist.  I'm wearing it as I type this very post.

As so many aspects of chapters of life come to a close this spring I have a feeling I'll be all the more sentimental.  

Are you sentimental?
Have you ever worn or held onto something seemingly insignificant for sentimentality's sake?

Simply,
Sarah
The Daydream Darling 

P.S. The first thing that comes to mind each time I hear the word "sentimental" the song Sentimental Journey sung by Doris Day begins to play in my head. 

CFS/FM Diaries: Grief waves and spring days...

Hello everyone!

This is a post that is devoted to updates on my health issues. I realize that not everyone wants to read about my health updates so I have recently decided to title the posts that are devoted to that topic the CFS/FM Diaries. It is a series of posts on living with chronic illness and updates on how I'm doing currently. 

Today's post is- Grief Waves and Spring Days...

There  have been and are times that living with chronic health issues is just plain hard. There are times that a giant wave of grief and frustration crash over me with massive forcefulness. There are times that I cry. There are times that I sob. There are days that are emotionally very hard.

Tuesday of this week I had one of those days.

Over a year ago, when I had been on the journey of living with chronic illness for awhile I quickly realized that there is grief, loss, and frustration that comes with it. In a sense, there is an aspect of part of you and your old life "dying" when chronic illness comes into the picture. And, much like if a pet or even a relative dies there is a grief that comes in waves. The grief and frustration can be triggered by the littlest things, memories, or realizations that life isn't going to be what you thought it would be.  Thankfully, as time goes by, there are fewer grief waves and the time that lapses in between them grows further and further apart. So, I haven't had a grief wave hit in quite awhile until Tuesday.

On Tuesday I received some information from the bank that was frustrating. Long story short, I realized that I was somehow going to need to earn even more money before I can achieve my dream of launching my very own hand crafted business on Etsy. That information set off an emotional trigger. Because, honestly, I've been struggling with not stressing about what I'm going to do after I complete the GED exams, cross that stage at graduation, and then have a lot of free time. I've always liked to have things planned out and at this point I'm just not sure health wise what I'll be able to do. I'm doing so much better, but I don't know if I'm better to the point that I could work a typical job.

So, Tuesday I cried the most I've cried in a very long time. The wave of grief and realizing again that this isn't where I thought I'd be at this age before all of my health issues. I rode out the grief wave, rested, and eventually came to a point that I was able to share with my amazing Momma. She knew exactly what was going on and is so incredibly supportive. She spoke truth and love. She told me to enjoy this season that I'm in right now and come the summer we will work together to reflect, brainstorm, and look at my options for what to do with my time. I'm so grateful for her. I'm also incredibly thankful for my Daddy and how supportive, loving, and caring he is. (I love you both!)

I'm also grateful for my dear friend Sara Beth and the time we shared on the phone that night. She is such an encouragement to me! I'm thankful that we can take time together over the phone to share and pray together.

When waves of grief and frustration hit I have to ride out the time. Sometimes it takes more than a day. On Wednesday I still had a bit of a hard time. On Thursday I finally began to feel like I could move forward. I took time to have my own little spring picnic. (I'll share pictures of that in a post sometime soon!) I was creative with my camera, I worked on a poem, I began a cross-stitch project, and I enjoyed a wonderful phone conversation that night in which I shared a bit, laughed, and enjoyed really good conversation.

I will also say, that articulating the emotional struggles that come with chronic health issues with others is difficult. Even those that I'm really close to. But, I'm so thankful for communicating with my family, Sara Beth, and over the phone on Thursday night. 

Even though I had an enormous grief/frustration wave crash over me this week I'm extremely thankful.
God has blessed me with so much and I am taking my Momma's advice.

I will enjoy this time. 
I will continue to work on my GED work.
I will enjoy the relationships that I'm so incredibly blessed with.
I will enjoy the evening of prom and all the specialness of it.
I will enjoy graduation.
I will enjoy making memories with my family.
I will enjoy these spring days. 
I will give thanks.

I may have grief waves, but I also have a blessed life, amazing people that love me, and these glorious spring days.

On this health journey I will keep on walking, take time to stop and smell the roses, and give thanks for the beauty amidst the brokenness.



Simply,
Sarah
The Daydream Darling   

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Flower surprises...

As my "Senior" prom approaches with every passing day I'm all the more excited.
I'm looking forward to a fun night and making wonderful memories with friends.

I recently looked through pictures from when I went to prom two years ago.
One of the things that I had forgotten about was how my Daddy surprised me. Now, my Daddy is usually not very good at keeping secrets. But, two years ago he really surprised me.

I remember it was a bright spring day and I was out in the front yard. A delivery truck stopped in front of our house and the delivery guy had a package for me.
It was completely unexpected and I had no idea what it could have been.

With a mixture of curiosity and excitement I opened the box to find the loveliest pink rose plant! They were small, light pink, and there was a precious note from my Daddy.

He surprised me by ordering me flowers as a part of the fun of prom.

I love him so very much and I cherish that surprise that was an expression of his Papa love so very, very much!


Another sweet flower moment was on the actual day of prom. Two brothers that I'm friends with gave me four red roses together. They both had dates, but wanted to bless me as a friend.


Even though I didn't go with a "date" that year.
(Which, I was honestly completely okay with!)
Between my amazing Daddy surprising me with the pink roses and my two friends surprising me with the red roses I felt like one very cherished young lady.

Do you have sweet memories of receiving flowers at one point or another?

Simply,
Sarah
The Daydream Darling

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

A little birthday party...

I recently enjoyed attending a birthday party for a little boy.
He and his family are very near and dear to my heart.

There was just too much cuteness involved that I simply had to share a few of my favorite pictures with all of you.


Those two sweet kiddos and their wonderful parents make my heart happy.

Balloons and streamers,
Yummy cake,
A soccer ball,
Party hats that shimmer in the sunshine,
Race cars,
Lots of love,
A few precious hugs,
Books with buttons and with words-
These are the things little boys' parties may be made of. 

Simply,
Sarah
The Daydream Darling

Monday, March 26, 2012

A Magnificent Monday of spring...

Hello everyone!

It's another Magnificent Monday and I've spent a good bit of it soaking up sunshine, swinging, and writing in my journal while outdoors.

Last week when I enjoyed a bit of conversation with someone a thought struck me. We had been admiring the sky/clouds and discussing how amazing they are. The thought that struck me and that I shared was...

For each year that I've been alive I've experienced spring.
Yet, it always amazes me and takes my breath away each new spring.

 Each spring comes about the same time each year. I've seen the blooms, the grass, felt the cool breezes, smelt the fragrance before. Yet, it is still amazing. All the birds in their twitter-pation tweeting, calling, and cooing to each other. All the vast blue sky and bright new green growth is incredible.

I'm so thankful for spring and all the beauty it brings about.

On this Magnificent Monday consider taking a moment to enjoy the season.
Take a moment to enjoy the newness of this week.
Take a moment to notice the beauty.
For, if you're not careful, you might over look the tiniest beauty in a pale, tiny, and hidden weed-flower.

The flower with a story...


Simply,
Sarah
The Daydream Darling

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Light...


There are times that life feels lit up and memories seem to glow within your mind.

Tonight I enjoyed a bit of raspberry hot cocoa amidst good company. 
We talked of lots of odds and ends of life and of clouds and how they always amaze our minds.
I hope and I pray that we are both a light in this world shining brighter as we grow. 
For life is so much more. More than any relationship. We are each new creations and called to be light in this world. 

I long to be a bright light in this world, not hidden, but shining that others may see. 
Not that they may give glory or attention to me, but that glory will be to Father. 

When I arrived home from the outing I looked out the window at the fading sky and suddenly thought of a jar and my battery operated strands of lights.
I grabbed said items and my camera then I dashed on my brown corduroy coat.
Out the back door I flew, down the steps, and out in the yard.
Lights glowing within the jar,
Lying on the ground at times,
Setting up the jar and lights just right,
And looking like quite the oddity to my neighbors,
I captured the light. 

Click.
Click.
Click.
And, later, I rested on my back for a bit. I watched the clouds move across the sky as the very last traces of light faded away for the night.
I thought of the phrase that took my breath away when I read it again  this afternoon-

"And from his fullness we have all received, grace upon grace." 
(John 1:16)       

Grace upon grace.
Wow.
I'm amazed by the clouds, by the beauty of light, by those words, but most of all by Him.

May I be a bright light as I walk this earth.
Not hidden.
Radiantly shining for His glory. 

I treasure these memories, I treasure the truth of the scripture and the way they pierce into me.

Tonight I enjoyed raspberry hot cocoa with good company.
Tonight I watched clouds.
Tonight I was spontaneous in capturing little glimpses through a camera lense.
But, most of all, tonight I was reminded of His goodness.
Reminded to shine and that through Jesus I have received grace upon grace.


Simply,
Sarah
The Daydream Darling

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Wyatt's first day of Spring...

There once was a rabbit named Wyatt.

He had a brave little heart, soft brown ears,  wore a rather dapper brown bow-tie, and longed to go on an adventure.

So, on the very first day of spring he told his dear friend Sarah, "Goodbye!"
Then, he selected just the right sized basket-boat and set sail upon the grassy sea in search of adventure.    



Wyatt's adventures were going well.
He passed the incredible rock cliffs, sea-weeds, and other interesting things.

But, suddenly, Wyatt encountered a grass-sea beast!

It was the dreaded Sea-Dog that loved to devour little stuffed rabbits...(Don't be fooled by her sweet face!)


Wyatt and the Sea-Dog had a bit of a skirmish and poor Wyatt's boat crashed!


Wyatt was worried that he would be lost in the grassy-sea forever.
But, suddenly, Wyatt's dear friend Sarah was there!
She rescued him from the dreaded Sea-Dog and took him back home to safety.

Wyatt joyfully said, "Thank you for saving me! How did you find me, friend?"
Sarah smiled and said, "I heard that the dreaded Sea-Dog was in the area where you set off for adventure and ran as fast as I could to make sure you were okay!"

Wyatt was glad that Sarah had cared so much as to rescue him from the Sea-Dog.

The duo headed home and were glad for the simple time together.
Wyatt had enough adventure for one spring day and was happy just to be in Sarah's hand.

The End.

For those of you that are crafty and would like to know how to make your own little rabbit friend here are the details:

Pattern: Bella the Bunny by Lionbrand. (You will have to create/login to a lionbrand account to view the pattern. But, the good news is that it is free to create an account with them!)
Yarn: I used scraps of three different yarns. (I couldn't tell you what color or brand they were since their labels are long gone.)

It was an easy and delightful pattern to follow!
The changes that I made were stitching the eyes with yarn, not stuffing the arms, and making him a chain-stitched bow-tie.

I hope you enjoyed the story. I can be rather imaginative and a daydreamer sometimes.
Speaking of which, there was a little neighbor boy simply entranced by watching an "adult" pose for pictures with a stuffed rabbit. My family laughed at me when I walked in after the photo-shoot and announced, "I must be quite an anomaly to him!"
I'm so glad that my family loves me, my frequent wordiness, and my sometimes odd creative whims.

If you make your own little rabbit pal I'd love to hear about it!

Happy first day of spring!

Simply,
Sarah
The Daydream Darling

Monday, March 19, 2012

On this Monday...

On this Monday I'm having a bit of Fibdromyalgia pain going on.
I think it is partly from the busy weekend, but mostly it's due to the stormy weather. I'm not a doctor, but every time there is a big storm I usually have some sort of surge in my FM pain level.

But, even though I don't feel that great it is still a Magnificent Monday! I'm still choosing joy.

It's been a Magnificent Monday because I've been able to cherish memories from the weekend, accomplish GED prep-work, read a bit, look at my almost completed crocheted bunny, and rest.

I thought I would share a few pictures with all of you that I took last week.

I hope that they make you smile a bit!

Dandelion...
Weed moment...
Dandelion....

This week I'm looking forward to sharing...

-Stories and pictures from the weekend.
-The completed crocheted bunny!
-A health update and update on my GED preparations.

May your Mondays be magnificent!

Simply,
Sarah
The Daydream Darling

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Text chimes and bird songs...

When I awoke to the chiming sound of texts come fluttering in and I grumbled in my tired mind,

"Who is writing at such a time of day?
This is not the time that I had hoped my day would begin."

But, when I took the phone in hand my grumbles ceased their sounds.
Instead my heart was filled with joy as I read the texts from a dear friend. 
She had begun the morning well and couldn't help sharing her overflowing joy.

I rejoiced over and prayed for her and those that were on my mind.
Then, I heard the birds.
They were singing their good-morning song. I dashed on jeans, a sweater, and my beaded shoes then out to the backyard I flew.
(Maybe I didn't truly fly, but in that moment it felt like flying.)
I went and sat upon the cool steps this cloudy-turned-blue-sky morning.
I sat and enjoyed the way the birds sang to celebrate the day.

After taking time to journal, read, and photograph a bit I heard another lovely sound...
The bells down the road chimed,

1,
     2,
          3,
               4,
                    5,
                         6,
                              7,
                                   8...

It had been a very long time since I had been outside to hear the bells chime that early in the morning.
It had been a long time since I had sat and listened to the birds sing their early morning songs.
It was a wonderful way to begin the day and a wonderful time to rejoice.

To begin the day with grumbles is not a lovely thing.
But, when grumbles are transformed to rejoicing my feet want to dance a bit and my voice can't help but sing. 

Psalm 92:1-4, 

"1 It is good to give thanks to the Lord,
to sing praises to your name, O Most High;
2  to declare your steadfast love in the morning,
and your faithfulness by night,
3  to the music of the lute and the harp,
to the melody of the lyre.
4  For you, O Lord, have made me glad by your work;
at the works of your hands I sing for joy."

Life is full of little moments and memories...

Early morning sky.
Mourning Dove. One of my favorite birds.
Lens-cap, journal, pen, Bible, and camera in hand make for a nice porch time.
Early morning wonder- when you roll out of bed and jump into adventure of the moment.
My sweet Annie Girl.
Dandelion moment.
Having little adventures and making memories.
When was the last time you listened to birds sing their morning songs?
What moments have you taken time to enjoy today?

Simply,
Sarah
The Daydream Darling 

Thursday, March 8, 2012

When plans fall through...

When plans fall through, craft a bit and clean your room.
Well, at least if you were me that might be what you do.

You see, I had plans for tonight, but last night they fell through.
I'll be honest and say that it was a bit disappointing. Not because it was a majorly special event. No, simply because I was looking forward to the quality time. But, plans not working out how we hoped is a part of life. And, in relationships whether it be with friends, family, or a special someone I'm being reminded of 1 Corinthians 13. Yes, the love chapter. God's really been working in my heart and showing me how selfish I can be with my family, friends, and so on. True love isn't selfish, it's selfless.



Example: If I'm in a bad mood or tired I may not feel like playing a board-game when my little brother asks me to. But, true love means playing a game with him because I want him to know that I care for him and love him.

That's just one example of ways that God is prodding my heart and seems to be saying, "Do you really love? Show it in this moment. Not just when it is easy, but when you are worn."

So, I set about today to not wallow in disappointment when plans change. Instead I wanted to embrace the night. Was I perfect at living out love to my precious family? No. I still mess up. But, by God's grace I want to live out love as Christ calls us to.



And, when plans fall through it can be a good use of one's time to craft and clean a room! That was a good use of my evening tonight. I documented a bit of the crafts and thought that I would share.

I enjoyed sorting through my bowl of assorted buttons. When you buy a bag of mixed buttons it is a bit like a treasure hunt and a craft adventure looking through them.

This little button is a treasure from my button time. It was the only button shaped like a heart in the whole bunch.
Playing with green buttons and green fabric for a possible project.
All in all, I'm so thankful for today, the lessons of love, heart checks, growth, craft time, and cleaning.

Simply,
Sarah

Monday, March 5, 2012

Magnificent Monday: Tea-time gifts...

Hello everyone!

It's Monday which means it is time for another Magnificent Monday post! I first began writing the posts in this series because so many people spend their Mondays down, grumbling, and so on. Instead of participating in the typical "moody Mondays" I do my best to find things to celebrate each Monday.

After all, Mondays can be rather magnificent!

This Monday I'm getting over a bit of a cold. All in all, I was blessed to accomplish a bit of cleaning, GED course work, and a few different things around the house, as well as rest. I took a bit of time to photograph a few lovely gifts that I received on Sunday too!

A very sweet new friend of mine blessed me with a new tea-mug, a little nifty "steeper", and herbal tea. All packaged prettily in tissue paper and tied up with ribbon and straw string. (Later this week I plan to share a post about my new tea adventure since I'm used to tea-bags and such instead of using a steeper and loose tea. I'm very excited to try each of the lovely teas.)

I'm so thankful for the gifts. When people bless me with thoughtful gifts it majorly impacts me. But, the reason it impacts me is not because of how much money was spent or because I really want a lot of "stuff". I'm impacted because the objects are merely a symbol of the love, thoughtfulness, creativity, friendship, and so on that came with the gifts. Every time I look at that mug, use the steeper, drink the tea, and wear the ribbon in my hair, I will think of Laura and those items will remind me of her love and kindness. That is how so many different items I have about my room are. I can tell you the memories, love, kindness, and encouragement behind each of them.

Now, on to the photos!

Flickr: Link
Flickr: Link

What are some ways that you've celebrated this Magnificent Monday?
Have you ever received gifts that are symbolic to you of the love, thoughtfulness, friendship, and so on behind them?

May your Mondays be Magnificent!

Simply,
Sarah